944 S2 totalled, I am fine but lost a friend

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My friends, I don't know if it's a good idea to go public this soon, but honestly, as I always say, I consider JW part of my family. Nerdish, I know, but it's like that after years together!

I'll make it short because I had to explain what happened so many times in the past 24 hours.

I was coming back home from Gstaad after the Bonhams Ferrari sale with this friend of mine, actually a brother for me, and my best friend since years.

Overtaking a car I lost the back of the S2. Dunno why but the road was slippery. no snow, ice or water on the tarmac, but probably a mix of salt and other shit made it slippery because when I tried to re-enter the right lane the back snapped to the left. Tried to catch it but it was too bad sadly and fishtailed. Hit the inside wall, started to slide down the opposite lane with the car perpendicular to it. An A3 was coming at speed (80 km/h speed limit there) and could barely start braking. His my car VERY hard right into the passenger door.
When I woke up and managed to breathe again I quickly noticed I was ok but not my friend. The car was as crouched as you see inthe worst pics on the net or papers on the right side..

Long story short, he was still alive there, was heliported to the hospital but he left us there.

Long story short because it's really shattering to live this thing again and again.. I spent the day with cops, telling my version, waiting for news from the H. when they came, they were terribly wrong. And when he died of course I sort of became an assassin.
Dunno how you call it in english, it's an omicide because you were not careful, something like that. When a passenger in your car dies, the justicy has to consider you like this. Now the police and tribunal will do their investigations to understand the degree of culpability I had in this thing, but well, to be honest, these are mere details today.

Yesterday I lost my best pal, the kind of friend you always think about when you do something funny, the kind of guy with whom you spend countless hours doing anything, the kind of guy that will leave an hole in my heart nothing will ever fill.

Again, I am fine, so far I can deal with it but memories keep going back to those short moments when I saw the A3 ramming into us, when I finally came back to reality and understood my friend was probably gone.

If you have questions I'll try to answer them, but please, understand yesterday was the worst day of my life, something I hope you guys will never experience in first person. Awfull, really bad.

But let me end on a positive note: life despite all this shit is worth to be lived. Even the most terrible things can happen, but we just have to keep going on, looking forward for what's coming next. I am suffering. Badly, but at the same time I realize I can't stop here and crounch on myself waiting for the pain to go. It would never go away alone. It's up to me to make it part of my soul and my life and go back to normal life asap.

Sorry for posting such depressing message like this, but if even a single member would stop for a moment, try hard to imagine how I could feel right now and maybe avoid an accident in the future, it's something good.
Even if, let me stress it, I wasn't driving like an idiot.. but still...

Be safe guys! I'll try to behave like I always did, here on JW. This is part of my life too, ence I want to deal with it (outside this topic maybe) as I always did.

Thanks